Every day, every hour, every second seems like a constant struggle. I strangely find myself in a compromising position when I am driving these days. I am alert than ever before, it is just because there are many thoughts going on in my mind while I am driving. Most of them around the rights and wrongs. Trying to figure out what went wrong. I didn't drag myself into this situation. So the question is around why I am here, what I am doing here, how I will get back to what I used to be? I don't know an answer but hope to find one down the line.
I was living alone since Dec 2012 and never had any issues with being lonely. So now the question is around why I suddenly feel that loneliness around me? What are those factors that used to fill me from inside, which helped me feel so vibrant about everything. I don't have much difference in my daily routine except for the fact that I lost interest in many things that I used to love. Long hours in front of TV, watching sitcoms, news, football doesn't exist anymore.
I am searching for other things which will remove that loneliness that I feel inside me. I am somehow starting to find that young myself who used to dig deep into the pages of any book that he gets hold of. I am reading a lot these days, a lot of articles, blogs, watching a lot of videos. Stories inspire me, they tell about situations that I find myself in. I hear about people who overcame difficulties, who cruised through rough times and found happiness.
I am a believer. I believe in miracles. I believe certain things will happen to me down the line, maybe it is just about waiting for the right moment. I am becoming a fan of Albert Camus - I find his quotes inspiring and meaningful. I love the "absurdism" involved. Makes me want to know more, read more..
“I had been right, I was still right, I was always right. I had lived my life one way and I could just as well have lived it another. I had done this and I hadn’t done that. I hadn’t done this thing but I had done another. And so?” --Albert Camus, The Stranger
I was living alone since Dec 2012 and never had any issues with being lonely. So now the question is around why I suddenly feel that loneliness around me? What are those factors that used to fill me from inside, which helped me feel so vibrant about everything. I don't have much difference in my daily routine except for the fact that I lost interest in many things that I used to love. Long hours in front of TV, watching sitcoms, news, football doesn't exist anymore.
I am searching for other things which will remove that loneliness that I feel inside me. I am somehow starting to find that young myself who used to dig deep into the pages of any book that he gets hold of. I am reading a lot these days, a lot of articles, blogs, watching a lot of videos. Stories inspire me, they tell about situations that I find myself in. I hear about people who overcame difficulties, who cruised through rough times and found happiness.
I am a believer. I believe in miracles. I believe certain things will happen to me down the line, maybe it is just about waiting for the right moment. I am becoming a fan of Albert Camus - I find his quotes inspiring and meaningful. I love the "absurdism" involved. Makes me want to know more, read more..
“I had been right, I was still right, I was always right. I had lived my life one way and I could just as well have lived it another. I had done this and I hadn’t done that. I hadn’t done this thing but I had done another. And so?” --Albert Camus, The Stranger
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